Cheese in My Shoe

by JHSEsq

“Just hours ear­lier I was at home, icing my old­est child’s birth­day cake, laugh­ing with my aunt and my mom about how huge my belly was. How could this pos­si­bly be hap­pen­ing? And why? What did I do wrong? Why did God turn away at that moment and not pro­tect me? I instantly wanted my child.”

Some­times you read a post and imme­di­ately admire the courage it took to write it down in the first place. This was such a read. What Pinky and her fam­ily expe­ri­enced is, unfor­tu­nately, not uncom­mon; what is remark­able is how her uni­ver­sal expe­ri­ence of grief is still fresh on the page. Babies.…memories.….was writ­ten in honor of a spe­cial lit­tle girl whose par­ents chose to name her Angel. It is also a step for­ward for her mother, who strug­gled with the deci­sion to divulge so much of her­self in a blog post. What she found included a com­mu­nity of read­ers who appre­ci­ated her hon­est brav­ery and chose to uphold, sup­port, and empathize. The response she received to her emo­tion­ally raw expose demon­strates the best of the blog­world in action. I doubt she will think twice again before hes­i­tat­ing to spill her heart.

So, Pinky, The Ris­ing Blog­ger applauds your deci­sion to be trans­par­ent. The blog is called Cheese in My Shoe. You are in fine com­pany with your blog­ging friends and you have writ­ten our Post of the Day.

Review writ­ten by MIMI LENOX.

{ 8 comments }

1 Pinky February 10, 2008 at 9:47 pm

Wow, thanks, Mimi. And thanks, Judd. I am so blessed by the kindness of blogging friends who reward my vulnerability. That was a bad sentence! Well, thanks anyway, and rest assured that your love and support will only encourge me to keep on keepin’ on!

2 Charles Gramlich February 11, 2008 at 12:04 pm

I enjoyed this. I’m sorry she has had such struggles lately and hope things improve soon.

3 Saleemah February 11, 2008 at 5:40 pm
4 Pinky February 11, 2008 at 10:54 pm

Hey Charles. Thanks for your concern. We lost Angel nearly six years ago, and it’s been quite a journey. I feel like I’m nearly a completely different person (which is a good thing) and I’m glad to see good changes come out of suffering. My faith in God was taken back to square one, and has been built back up on a firm foundation. Of course, the journey continues.

5 Linda February 12, 2008 at 3:21 pm

What an excellent, excellent choice. You probably couldn’t see me when I stood up and started applauding but I did!

Yay, Pinky! I just wish that you had never had to go through such heartbreak to write such a post. Never.

6 Pinky February 16, 2008 at 9:12 pm

Thank you, Linda. Although it may sound really strange, I wouldn’t change anything. I’ve talked to several moms who’ve lost babies, and they’ve said the same thing. I don’t know that I would say that if Angel hadn’t been sick. If she had been perfectly healthy and died…well, I imagine I would struggle more with coming to peace. But knowing that she would’ve suffered greatly on earth…that gives my suffering more purpose. You know that I think you are amazing, just amazing. Love you so much.
Pinky

7 Pinky February 16, 2008 at 9:13 pm

A note to saleemah~
I visited the rickshawdiaries, and I enjoyed the blog thoroughly!
Thank you so much for the reference.
Pinky

8 Armentine April 24, 2008 at 12:17 am

Thanks for sharing. But I still can’t understand that why you named it ‘Cheese in My Shoes.’ ??

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